Friday, February 18, 2005

does SIZE really matter?

aloha~~**wow,its been over a week i didn't update..huhu.ntahla,kind of not in the mood to write anything. .the computer at home is kind of lousy, so if i am in the mood i have to wait until working days. .speaking about working, well, i expect it is supposed to make me kinda exhausted, but for me, i just found out that after some months working and staying at home, i had actually gained 2 kgs!! and now i am gettin chubbier..huhu. after i weighed myself, and of course started freaking out, my mum just said.. "alaaa,takdenye gemuk mane pun, takyah risau la.." uhuhu..but my dad in the other hand, always like "haa,exercise la sket"..ok,so they had their own opinion..and i was thinking and i caught myself questioning "does SIZE really matter?"

ok,i admit i am kind of a chubby (i'd rather use this word rather than the other) girl. but fortunately after doing that darn BMI calculations, i found out that i am just slightly overweight, not obese..but even being a slightly-overweight girl is also a problem..not because of the fact that i am chubby, but the fact that when i am chubby, things suddenly have some stupid restrictions..that is the problem.so when u cannot overcome this restrictions, the best way is to lose weight..darn..what i mean by the restrictions would be like, (ok,this is a girl's major problem) buying new clothes.

i am a jeans lover.i just can't walk around,feeling nothing when i found an attractive jeans on sale. at least, i will have the urge to buy it.If i have enough money and no worries about it, i will purchase. but the problem is, everytime i want to try it on,i have a very difficult time finding the right size. so what if i need bigger size??everyone has the right to have it. everyone SHOULD have the right to wear that cool jeans! and i was like, "arghhh,bodoh tul,jual baju seluar sume saiz model, ingat sume org badan cam jennifer garner ke?" and what can i do, i just can put it back on the rack, and walk out of the store. *sob,sob* it is not fair, so not fair. not only jeans, even nice clothes have very limited sizes.damn.dont they ever think? everyone wants to look nice and confident,and i mean EVERY one.does size matter here? i dont think it should~!! even if there are plus sizes in the market, they all look so boring.oh so they think plus size people don't deserve to look fashionable too??beat it!~

another thing is about perception.believe it or not,there are still some stupid guys with some stupid perception. all they know is making sure that their gf looks pretty all the time..so they have to control themselves..u know,like eat little..think twice of buying that Baskin Robbins ice cream..even if they only have it like once every 2 months.or workout until half dead.sometimes they just dont even care of their gf's feelings. if they just make the regulations to their gf only, then that's fine. but here is this guy i know,he does not put the pressure to her gf only, he even puts the pressure on the his girl friends! damn. imagine,everytime he sees us,the first thing he said is "hey,u nampak makin kurus la,and u look makin gemuk.." and "hai,makan lagi?"..wtf?? and then there's this couple i heard about, the bf even threats the gf, if she puts on weight and look fatter, he will just ditch her.wtf again?? huhu..it is not that i am sayin being concerned about gf's weight and looks is wrong, but come on, there are better ways to do it. like being moderate.kinda like sayin "ala,gemuk sket takpe,skarang pun dah nice, tapi kalo kurus sket pun ok jugak" ..u know,it sounds less dictatorate to me..these men,they are just so egocentric. macam hensem sgt.haha.

see, the question of size really matter or not is actually subjective. i understand that different people have their different views.but hey, it is really necessary for some people to put pressure on plus sized people? losing weight is good, i know, but the pressure is not.sometimes the pressure could be hazardous. all it takes is some discipline and strong will. people do not need to make them feel inferior.a ah, no need.if you really want ur loved ones to look better, help them in the positive way,not by putting them in the place where their confidence will go in the drain. i myself would love to lose weight, at least the 2 kgs that i have gained. but, u know,i am thankful because my loved ones just keep on supporting me, regardless of me being underweight, overweight or healthy-weight :)*~~

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